While I am working on finding my own footing it seems like reality throws a wrench in the mix. Family members get sick and while I am sympathetic to it all I also live in reality and don't always show the sympathetic side of me. But sometimes that is what people need in a time of need. It is hard to face reality and I am usually a ball of emotions and the timing isn't always right. But those who truly know me know that deep down I not a mean hearted person or a bitch. Rather a person who has multiple sides. Not all may like it but I cannot run to everybody's side to help. I can pass on what knowledge I have and go on.
The next week and a half will be spent getting ready for my grandpa's 90th birthday. It will be a lot of fun and he will be surprised with some things I have planned at the party. He does know about the party and he is looking forward to it.