I'm lost and I cannot find my blog

Yes it's been awhile. I got lost trying to find myself. Ok I have just been busy. I've taken up the hamster wheel again aka bike riding. Nit often but enough to Interfere with things like blogging. Give it time andI will  be back full swing. Maybe half swing. 

One dollar, one minute, one smile

Giving doesn't always mean giving money or spending hours volunteering. It can be something as simple as a smile or taking a few minutes to hold a door for someone.

I find that doing the smallest things are just as rewarding as the bigger things. Yes I do volunteer 4 hours a month to help the homeless but I have time to do it. Of course there were sometimes when I had to make the time. I know that I made a difference in someone's life as well as mine.

So the smallest things help. Even if its $1 or a smile. It all adds up.

Journey, roller coaster or food fight. Life is fun.

How ever you think of life as, one the if for sure it is never boring. Yes, life is a journey but its fun to think of it as a roller coaster or a food fight that you don't have to clean up.

For example of could get hit with meat. Not sure where this would happen but it could become of those down moments in life. Lesson is not to be in an area where they are throwing meat. The plus side you can shower and get all cleaned up. A cake would be so much better to get hit with. Other then being messy there's no downside. It's something you could eat.

Yep I lost and then found some of it back

So fare weightloss journey continues. The first week I lost 3.9 and the second week I found .2 back. I wasn't trying to find it but I did. But I know I wasn't 100% working the new lifestyle. The habits did not form overnight so the may take awhile to come undone and new ones to take their place.

They just need to get on that express train outta here. But I'll take the slow train so the habits stick like glue.

Jello, water and cucumbers

Really how much water and jello can I take in. Not to mention cucumbers. i have to drink 2 shakes a day, eat a bar and a soup. Each one is about 160 calories. I also get a meal. Total calories is about 1000 a day. It is under medical supervision. but still i can eat as much as I want of cucumbers, lettuce and raw cabbage. Out of those 3 I like cucumbers and lettuce. Then if i am really hungry I can have sugar free jello. One serving.

The water is enough to drive a person to float away. Soon my organs will needs boats to function. I now spend more time going to the bathroom than i do sleeping. I sleep 8 hours.

In the end i know it will be worth it So in the mean time I'll try not to let my organs float too far away.

Where's the food!!!???

Day 2 of the lifestyle change. Aka heathy eating, exercising. More like Starving! Ok maybe I'm being dramatic. Yup I haven't stuck 100% but I have eaten way less and really don't want chocolate. Ok I lied I want chocolate. A big old pile of chocolate.

In the end it will be worth it. I feel better even after 2 days. Of course the emotions kind of suck. But food really didn't cover those up. Who knew that chocolate didn't take those away. Where's the chocolate!!!!!???

At least I'm more in tune with my emotions. Like I really needed that. Ok maybe I did. They are wonderful.

Really if we weren't meant to eat it then why was it made. The chefs figured it all out. Combining milk with cereal or making a cake.

Let the weightless journey begin! Again.

I have tried over the years to loose weight. Boy have I learned a lot. I feel like I have been on the dieting roller coaster only to find I should have been on the healthy lifestyle roller coaster. Tonight I start a program through my doctors office. I go to classes every week and relearn a lot of healthy choices.

It's not always easy. People say eat less calories. Right you little twig. Sometimes people need a little more help than just that. I have learned that the is also a mental part to it, for me anyway. Heck I eat with every emotion.

Yup this time it's gonna stick. The fat is gonna stick somewhere else. In outer space would be nice.