Blogging TikTok and Life

Another great weekend and living the good life.  Went to Iowa to visit the bestie sister and I was able to bring her grandaughter.  Lots of laughs all around.  Then people pop back up and only wanting to text.  I'm like grow and grow a pair.  Oh well I've moved on. 

Blogging for me has been way on the back burner.  I found TikTok and have done more videos than writing.  One day it will all come together.  Til then peace out.

Living the life in 2025

 With all the crap that happened last year it is so nice to have peace.  But my heart still hurts.  While he will always have a place in my heart, its the kids that I don't see anymore that hurts bad.  I have had differences with other friends/family and at tmes we didn't talk.  But when it came to the kids we talked for their sack.  All involved put the issues aside for the kids events and when they wanted to see me or vice versa.  Once the grown ups figured out our shit and life moved on.  Today those same kids are still close to me and their mom and I are still talking and closer than ever.

This other person nope.  She is not putting the kids first in this whole thing,  Like the other kids I have known her kids since theywere born.  But duct tape cannot fix lack of respect or being shelfish.  So, moving on and I'll still be here for the kids when they come around when they are older.

Peace out for now

End of 2024 Start of 2025

The end and beginning of the year had me packing and moving apartments.  It came with all sorts of mixed emotions but I think it was a good move.  I have been posting more on TikTok then anywhere else,  While I moved in the middle of winter there was no snow.  Which is shocking since I live in northern Illinois.  

On that note it back over to TikTok.

The Hurt and the Peace Afterwards

Since the whole break up, I also kicked a friend to the side.  I asked that the private stuff stay private.  That couldn't be respected so I had to let her go.  I'll still be there for her kids when I can be,  The 2nd mother is having health issues so I am helping when I can there since she has always been there for me.

Now that its been done I have such peace.  Don't get me wrong I want to send him a ton a messages but there is no point.  Yes I miss seeing the kids but I know I'll see them again.

The Man Child

Yea the F buddy is still hanging in there.  Just barely though.  He was all hot and heavy in the being.  Calling all the time trying to get a date and then we do meet up and it was going strong for awhile.  Then boom it totally slowed down and he's always having something come up.

Lol I started this post back in January and never finished it or posted it.  Alot, has changed since then.  I caught feelings and he didn't.  So in June I ended.  Then a few weeks later he called my friend saying he has a girlfriend and was asking if I would have sex with him.  Lord hell no.  So thats the short of that whole thing.

Now I'm the dating apps.  Someone help us all.

Joys of dating AKA having a f-buddy

Well the boy toy has been around for almost 2 months.  Not sure if that's what he should be called but it's not like we talked about.  Plus, a mutual friend started saying somethings like he's a player like he was years ago.  I was like I know what I'm getting into and he knows if he puts it in someone else then no more for him.  I do have some limits.  This isn't the first time she said shit when I started with someone we both knew.  The last one lasted 17 years so there's that.  Not that I expect anything to last that long but there's always hope.

So for the time being I am entitled to have some fun in the sack.  What?! Guys do it all the time.  How does anyone know I'm not the player here but I could be.  Plus, no one knows where anything will go.

I think I got lost

 I think I got lost in the past few months.  I have been working and hanging at home.  Oh wait I lied.  My friend set me up with someone from like 20 years ago.  It was someone that she and another friend met while going to a dance club.  Due to my work schedule at the time I only went on ladies night on Wednesday.  I barely remember him.  Probably because said friend was getting it on with him back in the day. 

Well for the past few weeks we have seen a lot of each other.  Funny thing was that I wanted to get back together with my ex from high school or someone like him.  Well I got what I wanted.  Someone like him.  So time will tell if it will work.  It is hard not to rush this but I don't want to spook either one of us or the purple monkey running around.

Till next time